bawal ang plastic...

hhaaayyyy....
nagharap na din kami...
hindi ko alam kung matutuwa pa ba ako dahil nagusap kami o mapepeste dahil puro kaplastikan lang ang lahat...

backtrack tayo...
nagsimula ang lahat ng makabalik kami galing sa lupain ni samuel. nagsabi na ko sa kanyang kamahalan ng mga naging pangyayari sa amin. mga ka-plastikan... mga pagpapanggap...
pero nagbigay ako ng disclaimer... at edited ang usapan. as usual umiyak na naman ako pero hindi dahil sa gusto ko lang umiyak... kundi sa sobrang sama ng loob.

dumating ang araw na kelangan magkaron ng paghahayag ng napipisil na maging tagapagmana ng trono ng hari. malamang, alam na namin kung sino.. sino pa bang pwede? si Purple Butterfly? i highly doubt it. hindi sa dahil hindi nya kaya... kasi hindi sya uto-uto... meron kasing utak tong si PB. wehehe sorry kung sino ka mang napili...

haynaku... ewan ko ba... sobrang bulok nitong mundo na to... parang wala ng araw na hindi ako nagkakasakit... hindi umiiyak... sabi ko nga, hindi dahil sa iyakin ako, pero dahil sa sobrang sama ng loob... lagi naman ganun e... iiyak lang ako pag sobrang galit na ang nararamdaman ko... as in sobrang galit. parang sa halos dalawang taon ko sa kumpanyang ito, e parang isang milyon na kong umiyak ng dahil sa sama ng loob.. ung dahil sa sama ng loob relateed to my personal life? cguro maximum na ung three times... grabe noh?

galing pa ng paghaharap namin ng Kanyang Kamahalan... kala mo naman super as in uber concern ang front ng ugok... here's a part of our conversation...
His Excellency (HE): how are you? are you still sick?
Blogger: yeah... but i'll live... why? what's up?
HE: please help me understand what's going on...
Blogger: weh? (ano daw?) huh? which one? (bobo ka ba? malay ko naman dyan.. problema mo?)
HE: i don't understand how this started. you having some grudge or something against me.
Blogger: huh? what are you talking about? (patay malisya lang... wahahah tangena ka pala e... matagal na talaga to.. bobo!)
HE: hmm... because the thing with Purple Butterfly, that i would understand.. but with you? help me remember...
Blogger: (gagung to... mandamay ba? a hello? tungkol sa akin tong meeting diba? hindi kay PB?) i'm not gonna say anything. it won't be of any use anyway, so why bother, right?
HE: why are you giving me an attitude?
Blogger: attitude? what attitude? me? giving you an attitude? you wouldn't want to see me give you an attitude...
hindi ko na gusto pang ibahagi ang mga sumunod pang pangyayari... masyado ng masalimuot... hindi na pwedeng ipost... masyadong karumal-dumal... wahaha biro lang syempre.. OA nun... hehehe seriously though, deadma na...
ewan ko... baka topakin ako next time... i-post ko rin lang... pero hindi na muna ngayon.
basta ngayon ang alam ko... pinlastic nya lang ako ng araw na un... at un ang mahalaga at importante...

signs... true...

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them. At that moment, you are in love.

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone. Then, you are in love.

Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet. You are desperately waiting for the call! At that moment, you are in love.

If you are much more excited for one short e-mail from that special someone than other many long e-mails, you are in love.

When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the messages in your answering machine because of one message from that special someone, you are in love.

When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would not hesitate to think of that special someone. Then, you are in love.

You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend", but you realize that you can
not avoid that person's special attraction. At that moment, you are in love.

While you are reading this page, if someone appears in your mind, then u are in love with that
person.

... ... ... cheesy yet truthful quotes... ... ...

Don't search for love, let love search for you
that is why it is called falling in love.....
because you don't actually force yourself to love,
you just..............
FALL...

Love doesn't ask "why" for it is a reason itself...
Love doesn't ask "what if" for it is willing to risk all...
Love doesn't ask "until when" for it knows only forever...

"I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough."

all about being single...

All your life, you had specific dreams about what your family life
would be like when you finally married.

You were so intent on what you wanted, you even made a list of
qualities and characteristics you were looking for in a spouse, in a
home, in your job, in your children.

But time passed, and that person you were so intent on didn't come
along.

All of your friends married, had children, had beautiful homes. And
still you were single. You prayed and prayed and prayed for that
person to come along, but nothing happened.

You had a good job. You served in your church. You spent daily time
with the Lord in prayer and studying the Word. You dedicated your
life to serving God in every way possible, but still nothing.

So you decided to take matters into your own hands, and you began an
active search for a mate. And within a short period, you met someone
who almost fit the bill. Almost. Sure, there were a few things
Missing, a few rusty spots in that person's character. But, after
all, no one is perfect.

Of course, your friends and your pastor tried to council you that you
were making a poor choice and that you should wait for the Lord to
send the right person. But that couldn't be right. You had waited for
a long time. Maybe your goals were too high. Maybe you'd been asking
for the impossible. Maybe this was the person God wanted for you so
your character could grow through dealing with his or her failings.

So you married. And your life went down hill from there. Even though
it often seems that God is slow to answer prayers, no matter whether
it's about a mate, or a job, or our children, or our finances, or
anything else, we have to remember that God doesn't wear a watch. Nor
does He look at our human calendars. He sees with eternal eyes. He
operates on an eternal timetable, according to His plan and His
schedule. If God seems to be running late, don't get impatient and
run ahead of him. Wait for the Lord's timing in everything.

To the single folks out there, this is for you.

Single means you have the time to grow and be the person you want to
be.

Single gives you space to grow. Sometimes, it is harder to grow when
you are too close to someone.

Trees are planted far apart so they can spread their branches and
become strong as they mature.

Single means learning to live by yourself. However, that is no more
difficult than learning to live with somebody else.

Single means freedom. You are free to spend a week's vacation on the
beach, to take computer courses, to work late on an interesting
project, to spend the day in bed with a good book or simply with a
person who has read one.

Single means learning not to need a man/woman to make your life
meaningful but learning to live with a man/woman because you want to
be with him/her.

Single means that sometimes you will wonder why you will bite your
lip and feel wistful and wonder if marriage is better.

Ironically, yet quite happily, single is feeling good about being in
control of your life. It is liking and respecting who you are and why
you are.

Single is realizing that being married is not necessarily better, it
is merely different.

Single means that there could be something wonderful around the
corner and you can take advantage of it.

Single means you are free to love again.

There are times when we are afraid of telling the person, whom we
love or like, what we feel deep inside because we might just lose
them.

That's a big risk...I know. But hey, everything is. The way I see it
is why keep something inside and then end up regretting it in the
near future?

But as I've said everything is a big risk. S0 whatever you decide to
do with your feelings, whether you tell it to that person or not you
have to be ready with the consequences that come after it and accept
it.

Whatever decisions that you have made in your life is part of your
growing experience...part of life. Whatever decisions that you have
to make will influence or affect your future. So think hard before
deciding on certain things...and PRAY TO GOD and HE will show you the
way.

something to think about...

this was sent to me by a dear friend a long time ago... this had kept me sane for the past few years of working in a competitive yet crazy industry... when i would get so mad at something or someone, i used to read the following, then feel good again. but it seems for the past few months, i have forgotten this and let my emotions get the better of me... i came across this again by accident when i have felt that i have no one to turn to, as if i am alone... and just to confirm it... i am alone... **sigh** **sigh** **sigh** hmm... i'm now starting to wonder... do i really deserve this? or do i deserve something great and better than what i have right now? ponder... ponder... ponder... my gosh... i need to think less than usual...

"Don't Quit"

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you are trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but do not quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.

And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far.
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

.........

"When I lost you.
I was the one who loved you most,
but between us you lost more...
For someday I can love someone the way I loved you...
But you will never be loved again the way that I did."

boys... guys... men... whatever you would want to call them...

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him alone.

4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

6. Don't force an attraction.

7. Slower is better.

8. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

9. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don't let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.

11. Don't settle.

12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

13. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship--take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?

14. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

15. Honorable men take care of their business and aren't involved in a whole lot of mess.

16. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

17. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he doesn't want you.

18. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.

20. Always put yourself and your happiness first.

21. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

23. If he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.

24. Be honest and upfront.

25. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.

26. Don't fall for the "I'm confused role". Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out (but don't wait for him, move on).

27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).

28. There's more than physical abuse, there's emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them...flee.

29. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.

30. Don't let him place rules on you that he is not willing to fall.

**ibang level... meron pa kayang ganito?!? mahihirapan na nga ata akong makahanap ng ganito... hehehehe

taken for granted...

ano bang problema ko?!?
bakit hanggang ngayon kahit anong pilit kong kalimutan ang mga nangyari, parang sariwa pa din lahat... anong epekto meron ka sa akin at ganito pa din ang nararamdaman ko? hhaaayyyy... ewan ko ba...
ang hirap ng ganitong feeling... tipong sya naka-move on na... samantalang ako... hhaaayyyy ulit... ang malupit lang kasi... hindi naman kami... so anong inaarte arte ko? ewan ko din...
akala ko wala na talaga... na naka-move on na ko... hindi pa pala... kahit masakit, kelangan ipakita na wala na talaga...
kelangan umiwas... kelangan mag-move on... umiwas hangga't kaya...