Wednesday, November 5, 2008

something to think about...

this was sent to me by a dear friend a long time ago... this had kept me sane for the past few years of working in a competitive yet crazy industry... when i would get so mad at something or someone, i used to read the following, then feel good again. but it seems for the past few months, i have forgotten this and let my emotions get the better of me... i came across this again by accident when i have felt that i have no one to turn to, as if i am alone... and just to confirm it... i am alone... **sigh** **sigh** **sigh** hmm... i'm now starting to wonder... do i really deserve this? or do i deserve something great and better than what i have right now? ponder... ponder... ponder... my gosh... i need to think less than usual...



"Don't Quit"

When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you are trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but do not quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don't give up though the pace seems slow -
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.

And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far.
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

.........

"When I lost you.
I was the one who loved you most,
but between us you lost more...
For someday I can love someone the way I loved you...
But you will never be loved again the way that I did."

boys... guys... men... whatever you would want to call them...

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him alone.

4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

6. Don't force an attraction.

7. Slower is better.

8. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

9. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don't let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.

11. Don't settle.

12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

13. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship--take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?

14. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

15. Honorable men take care of their business and aren't involved in a whole lot of mess.

16. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

17. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he doesn't want you.

18. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.

20. Always put yourself and your happiness first.

21. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

23. If he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.

24. Be honest and upfront.

25. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.

26. Don't fall for the "I'm confused role". Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out (but don't wait for him, move on).

27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).

28. There's more than physical abuse, there's emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them...flee.

29. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.

30. Don't let him place rules on you that he is not willing to fall.

**ibang level... meron pa kayang ganito?!? mahihirapan na nga ata akong makahanap ng ganito... hehehehe

taken for granted...

ano bang problema ko?!?
bakit hanggang ngayon kahit anong pilit kong kalimutan ang mga nangyari, parang sariwa pa din lahat... anong epekto meron ka sa akin at ganito pa din ang nararamdaman ko? hhaaayyyy... ewan ko ba...
ang hirap ng ganitong feeling... tipong sya naka-move on na... samantalang ako... hhaaayyyy ulit... ang malupit lang kasi... hindi naman kami... so anong inaarte arte ko? ewan ko din...
akala ko wala na talaga... na naka-move on na ko... hindi pa pala... kahit masakit, kelangan ipakita na wala na talaga...
kelangan umiwas... kelangan mag-move on... umiwas hangga't kaya...

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

bakit ba in denial ka?

*sigh*
inuman na 'to...
ako man ay in denial din... na parang walang nangyari... parang... wala lang...
hhaaayyyy...

antagal mong nawala... antagal kitang hindi nakausap... kaya balik ako sa dati...
naghandle ng OJT ng bagong wave... nagagalit dahil hindi nakakasunod ang mga agents... sumisigaw dahil nag-overbreak sila... gumagawa ng reports... balik talaga sa dati... para makalimot lang...

one fine day... nasa training ako ng bagong mga agents (wave 4)... sinabihan ako ni Remy (rat from Ratatouille) na kailangan magpunta sa isang lugar para gawin ang isang bagay... kinailangan magpunta sa kanilang parte ng mundo para sa kahilingan na kelangan gawin ng nakararami... sinamahan ko ang mga bata... habang sinsagutan nila ang some sort of test nila, nabanggit ko kay Antique Spectacles na merong naghahanap kay Nate Archibald. Sumagot siya, sabay tawa, "wala pa siya... mamaya pa malamang dadating yun. Panghapon kasi siya e. Malamang kasama nya si Blair at Jenny ngayon..." hindi ko alam kung anong magiging reaksyon ko... matutuwa ba ako? maiinis? o malulungkot? ewan ko... nalilito pa ako... deadma na lang...

hayun na nga... pumasok na si Nate... nagonline ako habang nagpa-practice ang mga bata... hindi ko akalaing magpapadala ito ng mensahe gamit ang MSN... ang mga sumusunod ay ang pag-uusap na naganap (edited 'to, syempre)...

Nate: ma'am? (term of endearment namin ang tinype nya... syempre hindi pwede dito...) musta ka na?
Blogger: okay naman. mejo masama lang ang loob pero okay naman, just the same. ikaw?
Nate: eto... off ko pero nakikigulo lang dito. hehehe
Blogger: a ok... so... ano'ng balita seio?
Nate: wala naman... kwento ka naman...
Blogger: meron pala akong trainee na nagkaka-crush seio... uuuyyyyy... hehehe
Nate: a talaga? hehehe *blush*
Blogger: oo... tinanong pa nga namin si Antique Spectacles kanina e... sabi nya kasama mo nga daw sila Blair... (ouch...)
Nate: hehehe sana naman hindi na bading diba? hehehe
Blogger: hindi noh? babae to. *wink wink*
Nate: talaga? ikaw huh? binubugaw mo na ko...
Blogger: (ano daw?) huh? san galing un?
Nate: wala lang...
Blogger: e kasi naman diba, ayaw mo sa akin? kaya ibubugaw na lang kita. (ouch ulit...)
Nate: hala... hindi a... ikaw nga gusto ko e...
Blogger: (huy ano ba? tama naman na... super nahu-hurt na naman ako...) ganun? sige ka... pag ako naniwala... baka magsisi ka...
Nate: *blush*
Blogger: (hindi ko na kaya... waaahhhh)

my gosh... my gosh.. parang walang nangyari... bakit kasi ganun? mas lalo tuloy akong na-confuse... napapagisip na naman ako... sana tama na diba? tama na...

Saturday, October 25, 2008

what has the world come into...

sobrang galit na ang namumuo sa loob ko. hindi ko na alam kung tama pa ngang ganito ang maramdaman ko toward work. bakit ba kasi ganito?

sabi ng his excellency, "follow the process." e bakit parang kahit hindi sumunod sa proseso ang iba (lalo na yung mga tuta nya) e okay lang? bakti lagi na lang kami yung nakikita? konting kibo lang, nasisita na agad... parang pakiramdam mo tuloy wala ka nang ginawang tama... ambobo mo, walang pakialam sa mundo, sa trabaho... ewan ko ba... kelan ka kaya makakarma? kelan kaya SILA makakarma?

sana soon...

sana...

Friday, October 24, 2008

we are... Wave One point Two


grabe... sorry naman kung hindi ko naa-update ito.
sensya na po... busy kasi... but i guess, you'd be reading more in the coming days... anyways...

i'm so damn proud of this shirt... design was made by a good friend of mine. kabilib ang talento ng taong ito. ibang level. hehehe pro bono pa... ganun sya kalupit... dami pa syang nagawa... post ko sa mga susunod na entries ung mga ibang gawa nya.... ;p

anyways, that's one of the reason why i am proud of this shirt. the main reason being the people wearing this shirt... WAVE 1.2...
they have made me feel that i could be someone i never thought i could be - A trainer - before the training started, i thought hindi na matutupad ang pangarap na ito (see previous entries). grabe ang pinagdaanan ng wave na ito. akala ko hindi namin kakayanin... pero we have proven all of them wrong... pinag-extend sila ng FS training kasi daw mga walang call center experience... kesyo hindi ganun kagaling mag-english, walang background sa industry at kung anu-ano pang kachurvahan...
sinimulan namin ni purple butterfly ang paghubog sa kanila. siniguradong lahat ng bagay tungkol sa aming itinuturo ay naiintindihan nila... minsan meron bumagsak, pasado, nag-retake... pero ang ending?!? pumasa ang lahat ng mataas pa sa inaasahan... galing noh? at dahil nga dyan, binigyan ko sila ng regalo... not much but i know they have appreciated it. medyo nagkaroon pa ng konting tampuhan kasi wala para sa kabilang klase. pero dahil nga mabait ang lahat, naintindihan naman nila. *sweet nila noh?* hindi talaga para magkainggitan... hehehe
antagal pa na panahon ang hinintay namin bago pa namin nakuha ang tshirt na ito... issues left and right pero nakuha din naman namin. at ang maganda pa yan? we wore this shirt with our heads up high during Wave One's Graduation. merong mga taong naiinggit (oh well, lagi naman... wehehe) na kesyo bakit wla daw sila nung shirt... e ganun talaga... hehehe kung selfish ka? mas madamot ako... hehehe

antok na ko... kwento ko na lang in full detail next time...